Surviving Child Sexual Abuse

Welcome to my blog- I'm writing this because I want to help others that have endured sexual abuse since I went through this myself from the ages of 11-18. So many kids these days are thrown into incredibly horrible, traumatic situations in which they don't know where to turn- usually because of fear. When I was growing up I was so afraid to tell because my Mother threatened to kill me, my Father and my Brother or my friends if I said anything. The few times I did say something to my friends, she was "convienently" listening to the conversations and oh, all hell broke loose the two times. Every week, when it got closer to Sunday, my stomach would be in knots with dread. I got to the point in which I started blacking out from the stress. Once I even "supposedly" cussed out my Mother's boyfriend in which to this day I don't remember doing. Your body goes through some bad things when you have intense stress to deal with. Kids need to tell a trusted adult the minute anything happens and to get out of that situation as soon as you can, because chances are things will progress each time and each time it will be worse until you end up like how I was -going through it for 7 years and being 18 years old with ulcers and a lot of trauma to work through.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Abuse passed down in the family?

I wonder to this day if my Mother was sexually abused by my Grandfather? I remember my Mom got really upset with him one day as he was talking about how he had won a car and had given it to my Mom's sister- when in fact he had given it to my Mom. He passed away several years ago, but my Grandmother would get so upset when he would hold my hand that I thought that was wierd. I was going to tell my Grandmother years ago what my Mom and her boyfriend Jim had done to me and she immediately told me "don't tell me because I won't be proud of you- your Mother is a good person as she would bring me fresh peaches"!! What kind of response was that?? I had written my Mother a letter about 10 years ago telling her my suspicions about this and she never responded. I'm proud to say, that if the abuse was making it down through the generations of my family- it reached it's end with me.
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